the sobering reminders in reality of how you can’t repeat the past,
yet how do i imagine future engagements to be as grandiose.
but there is something greater, a certain Hope far better of ahead
than those left behind for a reason.
when my heart was feeling empty and my soul devoid
You answered me saying You are with me all the days of my life.
my soul is downcast within me, therefore i will remember You.
You spoke to me saying You will fill me with joy in Your presence
with eternal pleasures at Your right hand.
I was sinking deep in sin, far from the peaceful shore,
Very deeply stained within, sinking to rise no more,
But the Master of the sea, heard my despairing cry,
From the waters lifted me, now safe am I.
Love lifted me! Love lifted me!
When nothing else could help
Love lifted me!
All my heart to Him I give, ever to Him I’ll cling
In His blessed presence live, ever His praises sing,
Love so mighty and so true, merits my soul’s best songs,
Faithful, loving service too, to Him belongs.
Souls in danger look above, Jesus completely saves,
He will lift you by His love, out of the angry waves.
He’s the Master of the sea, billows His will obey,
He your Savior wants to be, be saved today.
Jesus saves, Jesus saves He will lift you from the
Crashing waves, crashing waves He will never leave you
Love lifted me, love lifted me
When nothing else could help Love lifted me.
restoration
The Spirit of the Lord God is upon me,
because the Lord has anointed me
to bring good news to the poor
he has sent me to bind up the brokenhearted,
to proclaim liberty to the captives,
and the opening of the prison to those who are bound;
to proclaim the year of the Lord’s favor,
and the day of vengeance of our God;
to comfort all who mourn;
to grant to those who mourn in Zion—
to give them a beautiful headdress instead of ashes,
the oil of gladness instead of mourning,
the garment of praise instead of a faint spirit;
that they may be called oaks of righteousness,
the planting of the Lord, that he may be glorified.
so what can i say Lord
i’ve been down here so long,
but thank You for finally carrying my heart out of the darkness
my freedom’s in Your blood
that Your perfect love covered a multitude of my sins
i was made to know You
i was made to worship You
it feels so good to be with You, to be what i was made for
and no longer to stray in the way of transgression
i turn to You Lord,
You are sovereign down to the every last bit of detail
so i entrust my life to You
i love You Lord, i fix my eyes on all that You are
my beautiful, beautiful Savior.
ever since watching once upon a time and when i reflect upon all that has happened to me in this past year’s season,
my musings of if my happily ever after will ever happen and what it would look like has been on playback in the abyss of my thoughts
but today i am reminded that my Knight in shining armor has already fought blood and flesh with His life for me as His bride and risen to conquer death itself
Good has already won
that as Christ loved the church and gave Himself up for her
that He might sanctify her,
having cleansed her by the washing of water with the word.
that i may be reconciled to the Prince of Peace.
i already have my happily ever after because He lives,
i have Hope Eternal
oh how the things of this world grow strangely dim now
oh how i appreciate You Jesus, oh how You love.
so often, so many times i am so weak to just fall flat into flesh
and seek/look for You in broken cisterns and empty idols
instead of coming to You the source of living water
and on this Good Friday, where You allowed me to kill You by my sins
how does my fickle and depraved being still think and act in a way that says
‘You’re not enough for me, for not being satisfied in You’
You died on the cross for me, You took upon Yourself the judgment, punishment, and death i deserved, that You stood in my place.
now how come my heart is still so ungrateful and still run like an adulteress?
i know that nothing good live sin me, that is, in my sinful nature. for i have the desire to do what is good, but i cannot carry it out.
woes me, for having killed the author of life, and having been spared from that death i deserved, still be so fickle and run to other idols in folly. what a wretched being i am! who will rescue me from this body of death? thanks be to God- through Jesus Christ my Lord!
thank You that You bought the gift of repentance with Your blood.
that i may have a chance to turn from my depravity and turn to You Jesus.
i’m so sorry for always choosing self over You,
thank You though that this is exactly why You went to the cross, so that i can be free and not be enslaved to the ways of man which lead to death, but choose the way of freedom in Christ.
i bring my sins at Your feet once again, for being consumed by my own evil desires and enticed to folly, fear, control, and letting idols take Your throne.
thank You that You paid the painful price in full, ransomed me from death.
i am unworthy, so unworthy Lord.
why would You still ask me to come and repent so that i may find rest for my soul in You?
because of Your great, abounding love, thank You for the grace i don’t deserve.
please wash me clean of these iniquities again.
thank You that in Your death, You ex-sponged my sins and cast them as far as the east is from the west. You love covers a multitude of my sins, as You bled to death in my place on that cross. thank You Savior, come take your rightful place in my heart, put to death the evil desires of my flesh which so rage in my weak soul,
make me stand firm in Your righteousness again please.
thank You that You are gentle and humble in heart to me. the wretched sinner i am, while You are perfection.
as You were put to death by my sin, yet conquered it with Your Great Love,
as there is no resurrections without death first, i put to death my flesh, Spirit reign in me.
i can say it is still well with my soul because You gently welcome the weakest things in me
i take off the yoke of slavery, and take up Your yoke for me.
Wonderful love, You died for me.
