May 2013
4 posts
“not just because of what You’ve done,
but because who You are to me, God....”
when my heart was feeling empty and my soul devoid
You answered me saying You are with me all the days of my life.
my soul is downcast within me, therefore i will remember You.
You spoke to me saying You will fill me with joy in Your presence
with eternal pleasures at Your right hand.
April 2013
3 posts
6 tags
I was sinking deep in sin, far from the peaceful...
March 2013
6 posts
happily ever after
ever since watching once upon a time and when i reflect upon all that has happened to me in this past year’s season,
my musings of if my happily ever after will ever happen and what it would look like has been on playback in the abyss of my thoughts
but today i am reminded that my Knight in shining armor has already fought blood and flesh with His life for me as His bride and risen to...
though my world is in shambles
You walk with me through the valley of the shadow of death
You lead me beside quiet waters
You restore my soul
i fix my eyes on You, Jesus.
what does it matter if i gain the whole world and lose my soul
what does it matter if i can raise the dead, but You don’t know me
i wanna be a lover, make me a lover God
what does it matter if i give all to the poor, but i give You nothing
what does it matter if i’m busy with good things, but my love for You is fading
teach me to abide in You, teach me how to bear much fruit
February 2013
4 posts
learning authenticity
tears of understanding and joy rolled down my face as i was driving home from dinner tonight as 8tracks started playing hillsong’s all i need is You
coming from a meal where God used the conversation to directly minister and speak the Gospel into this current season of my life
He encouraged me today so many times to show me that i am not alone
and that the Spirit does truly reside in me...
long live the King of hearts, divine romance
A Valentine may play a love song for you,
but God sings you the sweetest love song in the universe.
“The Lord your God…will rejoice over you with gladness,
He will quiet you with His love,
He will rejoice over you with singing.”
ZEPHANIAH 3:17
A Valentine may give you flowers,
but God sent you the most beautiful rose of all, Jesus.
“I am the rose of Sharon, and...
oh praise the One who paid my debts
and raise this life up from the dead.
though i publicly announce, like peter,
my loyalty and love for You
i am so prone to quietly deny You in my private life.
thank You Lord Jesus for revealing my pride, folly, and self-righteousness
and for showing me how abundant, complete, and gracious Your love is though
You who daily reinstates me to Your mission...
broken and trampled in dirt
how ugly and appalling are my sins
that i’m in disbelief of myself
in facing the depths and realities of transgression
i want to lie in my grave, letting go of my denial
as the curtains are parted, this reflects how i really am
in total depravity without His grace
i am a crooked soul trying to stand up straight
when i try on my own
i only find myself...
January 2013
5 posts
“i know, O Lord, that Your rules are righteous, and that in faithfulness You have...”
– psalm 119:75–77
I will make breath enter you, and you will come to life.
this is what the Sovereign Lord says:
come from the four winds, o breath,
and breath into these slain, that they may live.
I am going to open your graves and bring you up from them;
I will put my Spirit in you and you will live.
then you will know that I AM the Lord.
please Holy Spirit come, fill up
the hurt, empty, broken, barren,...
“You are my Lord; apart from You i have no good thing.”
December 2012
6 posts
what a beautiful love
really enjoyed my qt just now, learning to hear God and enjoy being in His presence
haven’t felt this in a long time it seems and it’s funny how He always speaks to me from the book of isaiah-
Question: when You did awesome things that we did not look for,
You came down, the mountains quaked at your presence. from of old no one has heard
or perceived by the ear,
no eye has...
come to think of it now, for so long i’ve been running away this whole semester,
not wanting to come face to face with dealing with my sins just because it’s been hard. i was either giving excuses or minimizing the reality and depth of my wrongs and idolatry. as opposed to before, i’ve always been a sinner and idolater, but i suppose nothing had been strong enough to bring...
“it is good for me that i was afflicted, that i might learn Your statues.”
– psalm 119:71
Watchno matter our past, God is doing a good work in each of us.
November 2012
7 posts
God i miss how we used to be
just You and me against the world,
somehow i’ve lost my sense of self
who was my identity in You Christ
please help me to find myself in You again
i miss You, i desperately need You
reveal Your face to me again oh Lord
bring me back to You, Hosanna
Jesus please be my literal Hope and Love.
woke up this morning feeling so apathetic
towards everything and continuing to wish this hard semester to be over
and went to God saying i’m sorry i’m not feeling very grateful
even though i wanted to be
and this prayer He never fails to answer,
when asked to reveal more of Himself to you as your hope
so that you can be grateful and worship Him more
He is the reason i can give...
healing day 10- woke up this morning feeling such a heavy feeling of anxiety, worry, and fear.
yet i had no where else to turn but You God.
thank You for calling me to come to You to confess my emptiness and neediness
that when i came to You, You released all my cares
and my weary soul found rest in You.
that i can cast all my anxieties and cares upon You,
because You care
You care and love...
healing process day 1- God i need your help in letting go of being over-responsible for trying to play You in my life, grant me the strength and courage to let go and let You God please, the only thing that’s good in me is Jesus, come again and sit as Lord and Savior in my life, come reign in me.
thank You for showing and revealing to me the depths of my wrongs/sins and not leaving me in my...
October 2012
8 posts
““WAIT
Desperately, helplessly, longingly, I cried,
Quietly, patiently,...”
– Russell Kelfer
lately been feeling guilty for the lack of desire to go to God, yet still wanting to grow closer to Him, ironic. opened up the Word today to a random page, and He spoke to address the state of my heart directly- I have swept away your offenses like a cloud, your sins like the morning mist. return to me, for I have redeemed you.
God calls us to freedom and joy in Him, a satisfaction found in...
“at the foot of the cross
where grace and suffering meet
You have shown me Your...”
blood-bought, tailor-made promises.
Be still and know that I AM GOD.
He is my rock and refuge
an ever-present help in trouble.
God is within me, i will not fall;
God will help me at break of day.
God is in my citadels;
He has shown Himself to be my fortress.
commit your way to the Lord;
trust in Him and He will do this:
He will make your righteousness shine like the dawn,
the justice of your cause like the noonday...
“only You can save me from the suffocation
of my own sin and depravity Jesus,...”
September 2012
7 posts
“please Holy One
overwhelm my heart with Your love
please i want to love You...”
this is my revelation
Christ Jesus crucified
salvation through repentance
at the cross on which He died
for i was dead in my sin
now my life to confess Your Lordship
and glorify Your Name
let us acknowledge the Lord;
let us press on to acknowledge Him.
as surely as the sun rises, He will appear;
He will come to us like the winter rains,
like the spring rains that water the earth.
i...
in the light of eternity
even the things i desire the most on this earth
are counted as loss because of the surpassing worth of knowing Christ.
let this reality of truth and promise strengthen me, oh Lord.
“i want to know You more
i surrender
Lord have Your way in me please.”
undeserving
thank You for revealing more of my sin,
making me aware of all my inadequacies Lord
and revealing more of who You truly are to me
so that i may again be enamored by Your love
and fall down to worship You in the revelation of Your glory
let me not desire You for Your gifts/blessings,
but desire the Creator Himself,
You are able to do immeasurably more than all that i can ask or imagine
so...
